I'll be off to Switzerland in a couple of days, and next year I'll be moving to Melbourne. This will be my final post here, because this blog is past it's sell by date, because it's a new beginning and a fresh start in my life, because I'm lazy. But I'm not going to delete it, I think this encapsulates my past four years very nicely and serves as a good reminder of where I came from, and of a previous life where I had the time to blog every single day. Heh.

Sometimes I wonder whether it's just me. Sometimes I wonder about what I believe in. Sometimes I grow pensive. Sometimes I feel like maybe it's all just cold and fruitless and it's not worth it to keep the faith. Sometimes I'm grumpy and stressed and tired and I feel like I'm never going to reach the finish line.

"He who would learn to fly one day must first learn to stand and walk and run
and climb and dance; one cannot fly into flying."

I like this quote a lot(: I'm trying to do SS. Screw the factors for the rise and fall of venice. Anyway.... I'm not attempting to go in chronological order here, yesterday Val slept over. Glee sing and dance along, Wii in the wee hours of the morning, funfunfun. SingFest the past two days, its been quite an experience performance and making new friends and hanging out with old ones in Vocalogy. On thursday, had dinner at Holland with Elaine. Needless to say, it was a definite thumbs up. Friday, everyone came to school looking pretty and professional in work clothes. And the dance off was HILARIOUS. And our class singing My Love and tong hua and I'll stand by you during recess was awesome too. But the best part was when we all stood up in the middle of class and burst out into Don't Stop Believing, Glee-esque. Love 4E5 ((:

Oh. I think its stupid to dream. I know it makes me sound so jaded when i say you are setting yourself up for disappointment but it's true. Wasted yearnings. (and i hate how you can put me down so easily)
I guess I'm really tired and need something new, something fresh. I know where I stand. I'm not happy about it...but its easier like this for now. Different things mean different things to different people. And the heart has reasons that reason cannot fathom. I'm so out of it. Feel so of the world, so worldly. And how we all love our little games of pretend. Keep pushing those boundaries and see how long we can keep the act up.

I was just telling Elaine I haven't blogged in forever! So i shall blog about yesterday now:D

Its over. My response is somewhere between finally! and already? Heh.

I miss it all. Like, on the first day, how me and char came to school at 10 and I got booked and she didnt(wth) and we did the rehearsal for the finale and we played a fool, doing Indian Dance and Malay Dance and forming our own awesome shizzzz choir. All the helium breathing in and singing and heyapple and furrruit baskets.

And being so scared of the make up brush in Ms Poh’s hand and the long line for Ms Fong and rushing around rubbing glitter on the rest of the other CCA groups, like BAND. Hehe. And the picture taking and the freaking out backstage and sleeping on each others legs in a circle during tech run. Running outside finding our friends and getting flowers from Hannah, Nainika and Priya((: And the high before and after the performance and eating in between and playing unblock me and taptap in the dressing room.

Wanting to cry, just before our very last dance. “This is it.” It held so much meaning for all of us. It was it. The last, the very final 3 minutes of our dance career in secondary school. Last time we were dancing as a team. And onstage I think all of us felt it. The energy, the smiles. It was AWESOMEEEE.

Then after debrief, where everyone started hugging and crying, hahah and laughing while crying and the stupid “I will miss you *kiss*” to rub off our lipstick on each others faces. Xin Tian was wailing. Literally. Then, supper at Macs with Char and Nicole and Yun Hi and XinTian.

I will miss everybody so so much. I’ve made such good friends over the past 3 plus years, and all the drama and ups and downs and funny quirky things we do…no one has fun better than us dancers. Oh darn I’m missing everyone so much la. Modern Dance has been such a big part of my life. Without it, I would be sad, lonely, no life and fat. Honest.

Keep your face to the sun, and you'll never see the shadows. That's what sunflowers do.

I had the most awesome sweet 16. Last Friday, the full fleged H2H girls, Becs, Jing, Lynn, Gideon, Felix and Elaine surprised me at Marble Slab for my birthday(: Aww much! What wonderful friends I have. Okay, in truth I wasnt all that surprised cos of AHEM. Hahaha:D But Elaine and Felix surprised me the most methinks. And later on Sunday I was surprised (successfully) by my school friends, and one lone sec 3 braving the throng of seniors, XinTian! Heehee. They were so sweet and decorated the place with pink and purple helium balloons. On the day itself, I watched Alice In Wonderland with Vally. I have two new favourite quotes from the movie, first being,
I think that is an excellent practice and we all should try it. :D Off to church later for empowerment. Three cheers for good friends and a good birthday!

Okay, last friday was flag day at Bugis and I saw Adam Lambert!! My first time seeing any celebrity in the flesh! Hahah. And on Monday after training, Charmaine, Sarah and XinTian and I went for ice cream at Marble Slab and it was so nice we had it twice. Then we watched half of Jennifer's Body and Cloudy with a Chance of Meatballs at my place till 10ish at night. Loads of fun with the "family"!

It's been awesome.

I have a few things to say. DEAR JOHN really wasn't that bad you know. OH and LSB punished the class and made us stand for one and a half hours because a student borrowed his chair cos there weren't enough chairs. GRRR. And. COOKE IS GONNA WIN IT. And...chem o level spa is tomorrow and cheer practice till say 9.00 plusplusplusplus at night? And everybody is cranky. Yupp.